The best thing about the rain in winters is that every shower has got that cold wet freshness that it makes you feel like its the first rain shower of the season. The naked brown branches of the trees, the dry soothing sadness around, the honks and the windy wind suddenly seems to bathe in a fountain of drops falling from the sky and everything is just silent, all you hear is the rain drops like a women with anklets, mad in love running filling in a secret desire “I wish had it been me she was searching”, and sight of her bare feet wrapping the anklet made it feel like a new something is added to the brook flowing and it was just all the more beautiful.
A walk around the road smelled awesome with some smoke emanating from a somewhere invisible but rendering that country side feel of something cooking on a hearth with coal beneath or may be wood and the bangles of a lady singing with her song and her constant stirring, I dint know if she was for real or if I was just experiencing her presence somewhere around me but I felt I could hear it and the rain kept dropping and her anklets kept on making me crazy. I stood under the tree managing on the wet log listening to every drop from the fountain feeling it drop on my head and peep into my roots, in my soul leaving that shiver with every pass of wind. Wires connecting something to something standing like giants across the busy huge open space and sat on it were birds looking at me or may be ignoring my presence busy in their harmony sitting in solace talking to themselves making me wonder if they wondered too if they thought me to be someone lost looking for the lady in anklets who just walks and walks but no one turns to her but me, making me question myself is she there? Or is it that only I hear them?
It dint bother that moment, that cold fresh air just went on blowing me on all over, every single thing I wore was wet and I could feel everything shivering but I couldn’t help following the sound. It took me a little deeper in mud and I had no choice but to get rid of my shoes hold them in hand and feel the sqeezing mud between my fingers, I recalled my child hood days and the swamp just made me jump in it not till my heart pleased but unfortunately till an unseen stone hit my anklets making me fall real bad. I suddenly recalled my mom’s statement “happy like a pig in mud”. Pig in mud my eyes beamed and I dint mind the mud on my jacket, pig for some time until the speeding rain took my notice to the anklets and I sat on the the wet ground hearing the harsh drops on my head, on the ground, on the puddle and the brook that was flowing somewhere near and she kept on dancing with her anklets on, making me mad, wanting to search for her and help her find him. For I know she isn’t looking for me, why would she, what is it that I have but her madness was turning me crazy and no way I could return home being a pig in mud, I had to look for the brook and clean myself to be presentable at least, but what if she too is there with her foot dipped in the brook and may be if some fish is playing with her anklet and what if I see her and then I never want to help her, not find any one else and just be mine, and hold me close to her bosom, crease my hair and make me sleep with her warmth in this cold rainy day. May be my head would stop playing her anklets, I thought but what if she refuses me? What if she never wants to search for me if I am lost, what if she doesn’t even turns to me when I am there at the brook and what if she isn’t really there and its just me hearing this sound and its just me dreaming of the woman in anklet. It still rained but I dint know if I was still hearing her or was trying not to search for her.
Manowara Chowdhury
23/01/2014